to sleep

The first thought as I woke up this morning was, When is nap time? Penny has become a terrible bed mate and pretty crapy napper too. However when I look back at why is this way I clearly see its all my fault. I never made he cry herself to sleep and because of that she need me to fall asleep, to stay asleep + needs me to comfort her any time there is a problem. If I had it to do over?... I wouldn't do it any differently. I LOVED cuddling and nursing her as she fell asleep in my arms. I have paid for those precious moment in 20 months of sleepless night and I'm sure there will be many more to come.

Someday I will have a teenage Penny. Will she want to climb into bed and cuddle with me? Probably not. So for now sleep be damned.

Penny passed out in front of the TV. Barney was on.

xxoo

a baby no more

I am faced with a sad realization that my baby is no longer a baby. Penelope is now TODDLER. And I am having a very hard time with this. Today she is 14 mns 12 days old. Way to old. She has turned into a little person with her own personality. She reminds of her brother Matt (that scares me). Penny in fearless and adventuress. Today she pushed are very heavy wooden step stool up to the sink and scaled it like a professional Mt. climber ( I often find her at the sink because that were all the fun is). She doesn't just climb the step stool, the couch, the back of the couch, the dinning room chairs, ottomans, everything. And she runs, very fast. The ladies who work the infant nursery at our wonderful church have hinted that Penny is old enough to be moved into the toddle nursery. I choose to ignore their suggestions.

Just a side note. PJ was 14 mns old when I had Ben. I can't imagine what it would be like to have Penny and a brand new baby right now, but maybe..., if I can talk Mr Tripp into..., someday..., who knows...?

xxoo